Monday, January 28, 2013

In a funk...

I consider myself a generally positive individual.. I tend to look at the glass half full and I just love enjoying everything that life throws at me...
Lately.. not so much! For some reason I've been in a funk (whatever that means!..)... I've been down over my weight issues, work stuff, the kids have been driving me insane and some things are just not working out.. I don't feel "pretty" (I realize that sounds very shallow) and I just wanna hide in my room...
On top of all those things, I've had a terrible back pain for almost a month and I just feel like I haven't been normal ever since this issue started.. I want to go see a doctor but sometimes I'm in so much pain that I can't even get around to doing that...
I feel like crap because I know my "problems" are trivial compared to "real problems" some people have...so I hope God forgives me from feeling like this...
I have a loving husband, I have a job, I am healthy and have healthy kids... so why am I in such a funk?
I know that I'm the only one that can make myself feel better, but for some reason writing about this stuff can give me some perspective...
I ask God to help me get out of this funk and to find the power within me to turn things around... I also hope that I get the inner strength I need to lose some weight and start feeling better about myself...
It's always nice to be surrounded by loving friends and family...and it's nice to have a blog to vent and not be afraid of being judged! I'm sure I'm not the only person to ever feel like that, so I'm happy to know that it's ok to realize that there are crazy days (and weeks) and we all need help to get through them! ;)
Happy Blogging!

1 comment:

I Just Love You said...

i could have written this post! i've had back pain for about a month now too...my upper back/neck. chronic pain is enough to zap the joy out of anything. i hope you (and i!)find some relief soon!