Tuesday, July 27, 2010

The life of a working mother...

I am a woman, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and a WORKING mother... the last one being my least favorite, of course....
Every morning when I drop off the girls at the baby sitter and school, I get teary eyed...I feel like somehow I have to abandon my children to go make a living... they stay there, content, because they know that at some point their mommy will come back and pick them up...no matter how many times I do it, I always feel like crap...I'm sure a lot of working moms feel like I do!
When I pick them up in the afternoon, after a long day of work, all I want to do is hug them and never let go and no matter how tired I am, I could play with them all day... it's a crazy feeling... I know they're in good hands, but they're not with me...which means they could do better!
I, on the other hand, don't think that I could be a "stay at home mom", although I have a high degree of admiration for those that do it... I crave adult interaction and actually enjoy my career and my job.. I feel like I have to do this for my daughters' future and my own personal sanity.... such mixed emotions...
When Gaby was born, Iggy and I discussed the possibility of me quitting my job to stay home with the girls and even though we could do it (financially speaking).. I wasn't ready to give up what I had made for myself....am I selfish for that?
I feel so torn... on one hand I'd love to spend all the time in the world with my babies...but on the other hand, I feel like I have to nurture myself to be the best mother I can be... does it make sense?
It's not easy being a working mother... it's a hard life, it's a crazy life, it's a life where a lot of sacrifices have to be made, but I certainly hope it's the best life I can have to share with the people who I love the most!

3 comments:

Hurdles of Life said...

I am with you... I couldn't be a SAHM either. I was a nanny, I've worked at daycares (6 infants at time) and although I loved it.. I didn't feel whole. I needed more mental stimulation, more adult conversation. I envy women who can be SAHM's but I am not one of them. xoxox

Familia Diaz-Salvioli said...

Te entiendo perfectamente. La mejor mama no es la que pasa todo el dia con los hijos ni la que trabaja fuera de la casa. La mejor mama es la que se siente bien consigo misma y por ende, es capaz de darle el amor, la educacion, la compania y todo lo que los hijos necesitan. Se ha demostrado que los hijos son mas felices cuando los padres lo estan.
Yo tambien soy como tu. Por mas que quiero a las chiquillas, se que no podria estar sin trabajar. Lo ideal seria poder trabajar medio tiempo y pasar con ellas el resto del dia. Yo tambien admiro a las mamas que se quedan en la casa. Ellas merecen todo mi respeto. A veces me da la impresion que las mamas que se quedan en casa, juzgan a las que salimos a trabajar por la razon que sea. Y eso no me parece justo!
Buen Viaje y que se diviertan! :-)

Anonymous said...

Adri, you are not being selfish, being a stay at home mom is not for everybody, I can see that you are a great mom, because your girls in every picture that I see, reflect that! I can tell they are such happy little princeses, well Olivia is such a little lady! Just be greatful that if one day you decide to quit your job, you have the ability to do it. And also I can tell they are very smart girls like their mama! Hope this help. Besitos eli